I am so glad I was able to see this documentary, because it was a wake up call that I needed. It opened my eyes, and inspired me to talk more, to share my story with more people, and I am so thankful for everyone who had the boldness to step out and speak up, and for the impact this film had on my life and my heart.
I would think of arguments for my religion, and arguments against my religion and weigh them against each other. I even had a scoring system of points based on the probability of the argument being true, and its impact should it be true. I would worry about this literally for hours. I could barely hold on to my thoughts, it was as if they were racing too fast for me to control. My ‘ritual’ to end this, was to attempt to for one moment hold all the things i had considered clear in my mind, and then to decide on the issue of the day. (In the midst of the terror, brain fog, and confusion this was much harder than it might sound. And really, I was terrified.)
On a rare occasion one of my kids will burst into the bathroom just as I’m knocking back my nightly psychiatric med and she’ll ask, “Mommy, why are you taking medicine? Are you sick?”
My daughter is eight years old and completely aware that her grandmother (my mom) died when I was a teenager. I can see the fright in her dark brown eyes.
“No, no, baby. These are vitamins.” I tell her and kiss her forehead. “Don’t you worry about mommy, okay?”
Alluring, captivating and intriguing, Charisma opens a window to the intimate world of Sarah Lange, a creative and intuitive woman who after surviving a near death trauma now hears more than just her own thoughts. Barbara Hall, in her latest novel Charisma has gifted us with a thought-provoking book that will draw you and immerse you in the human mind, an exciting yet perilous place to be. Sarah Lange, a technical writer and graphic artist, is one day attacked and strangled to the extent that her soul begins to leave her body. From the time she is revived, Sarah can now sense and hear a new presence in her life. This presence she senses is that of what she will learn to be spirit guides, or angels if you will. These voices are strange for Sarah who has no other mental ailment or illness and who is not particularly religious.
There is a part of me shouting at myself for using up my energy to keep my mask on, mainly for other people. And I feel frustrated that I could not find it in myself to be a little more real in expressing myself and how I am feeling. But I also know that had I not attended or if I had gone and fallen apart in front of everyone I would have felt even worse today in a very different way. Rightly or wrongly, I would have felt like I had let myself down and like other people had a worse night for it. So again I have to remember that no matter how emotionally and physically exhausted I now feel, I made the choice for what was right for me in that moment.
By attempting to normalize discussion of mental illness as not so taboo, it is clear Demi is working to fight mental health stigma. Whether it is a candid interview on The Ellen Show or a lyric in her songs, Demi is constantly bringing up her peronal issues. She is not doing this because she wants to talk about herself, but because she wants other people to talk about it. Demi has chosen to share her story as a way to help others dealing with similar issues, hoping to “open up the eyes of so many young [people], that it doesn’t have to be this way (Alhilasha, 2011; “Us Weekly”, 2011). Although people criticize her to be continually over blowing and constantly painting herself as a victim, because she feels that this issue needs to be spoken about. In Stay Strong, she defends the documentary stating, “Why not air all my secrets? Why not share my story because some people need to hear it?”
My 27 year-old son, Drew, has been sitting in the Thurston County Jail since November 20th for nothing more than violating a no-contact order. Who put him there? Me.
from Hans Prinzhorn’s Artistry of the Mentally Ill